What a concept! If you look after you, you are better able to cope with life's ups and downs. I am spending time at home this month due to not looking after myself last month. I'm trying to regulate my sleep and waking times. I'm following my own advice and reading more, I've lost a few pounds but not because I tried, I made some delicious oat bran granola as it is always good for a snack or a quick meal. I've contemplated my future, it's still a little murky. I know that I can't stay where I am working for too long as it is making me sick--stress. I know that for sure I'm 10 years away from retirement and can afford to retire then--what a relief.
I know that I need to honour myself by taking care of business: play more, dance more, stress out less, keep writing my book--I have everything I need already to more than get started. Sometimes the fun things seem to bring on anxiety though. I want to set realistic personal goals, and I want to meet them. So much to do, so little time. My therapist suggests I continue to stay present. Reflect not on the past, nor project into the future--nurture you in the present and it may just help to clear up a few other problems.
My office, I'm beginning to love. It's becoming one of my favourite places to be--even though I have a bit of cleaning up to do, it's not as daunting as it was before I started. I've been gathering my antiques and putting them in my office and bedroom. Something old, something borrowed and something blue....not just for weddings! (and it all comes together). I have my Smurfs displayed, my candle holders out, my travelling gnome in the travelling section of the bookshelf and all my kids books proudly displayed and ready for me to read again and again. My office is an extension of my bedroom--only a closet separates the two rooms and they are opposite of each other in colours and structure but one is made for comfort and the other made for a bright place in the middle of winter to work in. Somewhere in between, I need to find a space for my felting, or my quilting or anything else that has taken my fancy along the way.
It really is beginning to feel like home to me. A place for my heart, my body and soul to finally rest. It's taken a long time....honour yourself today--do something wonderful for you.
Hi,
ReplyDeleteI'm proud of you for taking the time you need to get well. I've been diagonosed with depression also, and have taken things off my plate to help me cope - I'm not teaching my dance classes or working with my troupe for the winter. I think I may ask about taking a short leave from work, too, but am frightened to do that because of what people will think & say. And also because I feel guilty and I would be admitting weakness. I know I'm saying that it's okay for you but not okay for me - which is very silly! Anyway, take care of yourself - you're doing great!